Past to Future

Who are you, and what will you be?

Take a look through you’re past,

Do you remember me?

I am who you were,

Is this what you’ve become?

Lost in addiction far from the sun.

Do you remember your oldest dream?

Something of bliss, to be a king.

Look at you now, down in the rubble.

You let yourself fall, because of your troubles?

Or was it fear that brought you here,

Down in the dirt with only tears.

How many promises did you have to break,

To get where you are with your life at stake?

Was it sorrow that dragged you down?

Will you not fight it, or stand your ground?

You used to be better, do you remember now?

There was a time where you refused to be down.

You stuck to your morals, and fought for you dream.

You learned from your lessons, and stood firm on your feet.

I am your past, and prime of your being.

It shocks me still what I am seeing.

I am disgraced that you left me behind.

You left me for pity, sorrow, troubles, and tears.

Well look where you are, do you want to be here?

Remember the times you had only yourself?

You built love out of anger and everything else.

You built for the future, to live, not survive.

Is this who you are? You want darkness for life?

I know you better, so get off the ground.

I know who you were, who you are now.

You’re lost in regret, but you can’t change it.

The past is gone, now build your future.

Its time to change and be me again.

So void all doubt, leave regret behind.

Because today is the day, and right now is the time.

Were you born of poetry

“were you born of poetry?”

I asked your weakened smile.

It grips a story of longing love.

One of passion, and of pain.

One with nothing less to lose

But all the more to gain.

Behind your lips so frail,

And eyes sea deep, I see a tale.

“were you made of roses?”

I yearned to ask your gaze.

Whose soft and subtle melody,

To great to be contained.

Your heart was meant for love,

Yet your thorns made to keep it out.

As if your walls were down once,

And someone ripped it out.

“Do I feel a mournful grasp?”

One stuck to something of your past?

For its grip is tight and frozen

Around something warm, yet grim.

Could it be the love you lost..

 was not due to you, but him?

This pain it struggles deep inside you.

Yet you are reluctant to give in.

Do you know lies tell the truth, far within your eyes?

They tell me at a single glance

The colors of your soul.

Hues so bright and vibrant new,

And gloomy shades are old and sad

And ready to be through.

Ember sparks and sputters

To stay the fire in your romance.

And I see a hint of spite

 That wants to put it out.

And build a new empire,

One that won’t go out.

Let me sew my seeds of love

Into the ashes of what was once you.

I will grow us flowers, thick, and tall.

With your bright and vibrant hues.

Love will be our garden,

With summer all year round.

And the flame will never leave us,

Because I will never put it out.

But you must let go

Of past love lost.

For our flaming want is bound to be.

For we are the stars, and the sea;

The moon and wind; the ember, you and me.

a promise

It’s over, but I’m still trying

Holding on to everything we had

And I’m sorry, but I’m still fighting

Fighting for that fraction of a chance

And I see you

With everything you wanted

A smile so big

And eyes so bright they put the sun to shame

With every time I see you

The knife drives deeper

Breaking tides and making lies

And I’m the one to blame.

Yeah things could never be the same.

They could never be the same

Yet here I am holding on to shadows

Of memories, the dreams that we once shared

And still, a promise is a promise.

And I’m still with you, a thousand miles away

 But my love is still the same.

Part two: " Both Sides"

soaked from the rain

you must think I’m insane

my heart in your hands as we play these games

a love so wild it cannot be tamed.

As the rain falls

You catch my gaze

Eyes lost in thought

Could you ever be mine?

Eyes still locked

I take your hand

With loves gravity

It’s hard to stand

I picked you up

And held you close

The bond we share

Is much stronger than most

We cuddle all night

I don’t want to move

With you in my arms

And nothing to prove.

-Master Luke

Part one: " Both Sides"

Playing in the rain
I feel like a child
I’ve never been so happy
Your love drives me wild


As the rain drops fall
Your brown eyes shine
And I think to myself,
“Could you ever be mine?”


You look at me
And take my hand
My knees get weak
It’s hard to stand

But as you pick me up
And hold me close
Our love is amazing
Much stronger than most

We cuddle all night
Not wanting to move
Just laying here
We have nothing to prove
-BSweet

build your empire to fall

Perfect ambitions in your own dimensions

The lives you take to keep us in submission

The brilliance of it all will eventually fall

Your oppression suggests that you could care less

High on your horse things are good,

But they are about to get worse.

Sublimity only last for but a few moments

Then your world falls to its brethren

Sublimity falls to its brother’s depression

You ware your smile of indecision

Insecure you fight for more

Deep holes dug in hope and love

Your dreams will fall when you see it all

Ignorance keeps you tall,

But soon enough you will fall.

Fall to suffer in your own doings

For you wove this web of poison and lies

And you left yourself trapped inside.

Unlike sublimity, or depression,

Your hate will put yourself to submission

The oppressive life you gave to us

Has come back for you to make you rust

It wears you down to powdered bones

Hurt is more than words, and sticks, and stones

You get what you give and nothing less

And this was your final test.

And your time of rein has come to dead ends.

Fear not a light will rise,

One with love, and knowledge of your past lies

Vivisect your old home replace its foundation with new stone

Build from grace of love, opposed fear of lies.

The world won’t ever be good enough in his eyes

A constant fight to turn things right from your wrong doings

Perfection is the dream he is pursuing.

Yet with right there must always be wrong

But in time we will find balance.

just what was chillen on my cam

 those first ones were from christmas when my family donated a bunch of stuff

Its been a while

Dear followers, Sorry I have not been posting laity, I have been writing a ton but I don't know if i will be posting any of it, instead i'm thinking about making this blog a little more personal like about my life, but i'm not sure yet. I might just create a second blog for that we will see tho :p I will try to put some photos up soon tho so you aren't bored to death! THANKS!!!!!!

I don't care

Forever Together

The moment we turned into more than just friends.

I started holding your hand…

From that moment on we were always together.

I even stopped and prayed it would be forever.

As many times as I think, it’s always going to be of you.

We were just friends when it was summer.

Now we hold hands together….

I always prayed to god it would be forever.

But when your life called you away, I thought it was forever.

I never thought we would get back together…

I walked cold streets for what seemed like forever.

My heart wasn’t broke, it was gone all together.

But it seems your heart cracked the further we got from each other.

And the next morning when your flight left, you felt the need to be together.

And like an angle you came flying back to me…

You know you make me the happiest I could ever be.

Now we hold hands for what I know will be forever.

We even seal it with a kiss every time we are together.

You now know I’m the one for you and you for me

You know you make me the happiest I could ever be.

And now our love is forever…

you know who you are ;)

One girl, one time.

Just hope I play this right.

One game, one chance.

I hope she lets me hold her hand.

Two nights passed by.

Two times I tried to make things right.

Now it’s over, you’re on my mind.

Got one chance to make you mine.

Three questions in, you strike my interest.

Out of all the girls you are the nicest.

Three more in, I know you better.

Your song, our song, your favorite color.

This girl, she’s great.

I hope I get at least one date ;)

All day, and up late.

I promise I won’t make you wait.

One girl, one time.

Just hope I play this right.

One game, one chance.

I hope she lets me hold her hand.

Beneath these sheets.

Lay your body next to mine.

Lay right by me, lets waist time.

My hand in yours and yours in mine

Our bodies touch as we align.

I’m right here, I’ll never leave.

I’m stuck beside you beneath these sheets.

Your skin, your kiss, your touch, so smooth.

My heart is yours babe you know it’s true.

Although our days take us apart,

We end right here, and here we start.

Time is ticking, but I don’t care.

Because once I leave you won’t be there.

So here I lay, right by your side.

Through everything as time ticks by.

You are my heart, my love, my life.

Through thick and thin, I’m by your side.

So lay your body next to mine.

Lay right by me, lets waist time.

My hand in yours and yours in mine.

Our bodies touch as we align.

Mom & Dad

Quick to help me when I fall

Your minds your hearts are left wide open

Forget my wrongs, help make them right

You help me through any fight

To mom and dad, who make things right

I love you both, Happy Valentines.

Dull and Amor, luv sucks

I WON’T MIND

Happily we fix all

Mistakes we make, mistakes we make

Merrily we fix it all

For you I’d take the pain, I’d take the fall.

Kissing in your car

With the pouring rain

We don’t leave until it stops

Right now I love you even more

Right now I love you more.

Together for a long time.

Let’s make it longer, I won’t mind

Carefully we shape our future

You stole the lips that took your heart; you had mine from the start

Every breath you take, takes mine away. Don’t walk away you’ll bring me closer

I’m happy, happy to be within arms reach

Right now I love you even more

Right now I love you more.

Together for a long time.

Let’s make it longer, I won’t mind

Hold me closer, hold me tighter everyday

Let’s make it longer, I won’t mind

make it last, I won’t mind

You so own me

If you hurt me I won’t scream

With you around me I can’t breathe.

Together for a long time.

Let’s make it longer, I won’t mind

Hold me closer, hold me tighter everyday

Let’s make it longer, I won’t mind

make it last, I won’t mind

Dull and Amor XO

Dull and Amor

my love wont be waisted

I’m not going to say it,

I’m not going to waist it on you.

Look me in the eyes and tell me it was all true.

I’ll never let you go, you and me forever

I still won’t say it though.

I’m not going to waist it on you.

Tell me you remember

Tell me that you cared.

Tell me what you used to whisper in my ear.

I’ll never let you go.

You’ll be with me forever.

Forever, forever, forever

Our love will be dumb.

I’m not going to say it

I won’t waist it on you.

I don’t hate you

I just don’t care for who you’ve become.

Who said it was fair to just up and run.

Who said that you cared when my life had no sun?

Yeah! I’m not going to say it!

I won’t waist it! Wont waist it on you!

Yet I’ll never let you go.

You’re always here with me.

Who said it was fair?

Why did your really leave?

No I’ll never let it go.

You played me far too long.

And I’m not going to waist it on you.

this one i refuse to finish...

My heart beats fast at the thought of you,

You know I love you more than life.

But recently you've placed me under your knife.

I met you and haven’t been the same since

I’m strong but when you get close I let go.

I’m sick off these songs they all remind me of you

When I said I love you, you knew it was true

You said you were done waiting but I’d wait for you

You said you loved me more but now I see it’s not true

You had two hundred reasons written down,

But that doesn’t amount to my list, it touches the ground

My hearts unraveled a tangled knot.

I hope your life’s fine cuz mines been shot.

Shot to the ground for no good reason at all,

You said you loved me but I doubt it’s true

If you were in love we wouldn’t be two.

Yeah everything I did, I did it for you no matter the sacrifice I saw it through.

For one moment in time we were one, but you made us two.

My heart aches and burns and screams for you.

But you’re the only one, who knows if you’re coming back,

So ill just sit back and finish the dreams we started together

In hopes you'll come back forever.

Please just tell me what the problem is!

If you do I’ll trek to where that problem lives.

You have to love me for me not what I have.

Your words they hurt like a knife in my back.

On my back I carry you my friends and my family too,

There all stuck in tight carving deeper like the blade in my arm

but what’s the point of this useless distraction it’s not my arm it’s my heart that’s cracking,

One step closer to others is a step further from you,

So I’m stuck in my house with a knife in my hand and a cigarette in my mouth

To shut it all out.

This Is Me

Sick of changing back and forth

I’m am to you what you want me to be

But when the door closes I change back to me

And I can feel the hate building up!

Every time I see your face

All our good memories are replaced

With a single feeling and a single thought

Hate that bitch and let her rot!

 Because she was the end of my life

My life

My life!

This is who I am! I let you see what you want me to be!

But when the currants raise

You will be in the dark and the me you knew will

Be nowhere to be found!

This is my life!

This is my life!

This is me and I won’t let your plans change who I really am!

Because this is me!

I’m not the person you thought me to be!

Yeah this is who I am.

And who I am just don’t fucking give a damn!

I’ll let you see what you want to see,

But in the end I’m still me!

Because this is my life!

This is my life!

This is who I am!

Yeah, this is who I am!

This is me!

Oh, oh no, why can’t you see.

The me you know is make-believe!

But when the currants raise

You’ll be in the dark and the me you knew will

Be nowhere to be found!

Whoa, whoa,

Yeah let’s rewind, go back in time!

Yeah I was there for you, but you weren’t there for me!

So cut my wrists and watch me bleed!

This darkness it surrounds me!

But I guess that’s just part of being me.

And at least it doesn’t leave me

Like you do, wounded and alone.

Yeah this is my life!

This is my life,

This is me!

On the inside, spit me out!

Stitch these wounds, And let them heal.

Even though your words were meant to kill

Like a dagger in the dark you missed and made a spark.

But when you attack me when I’m down

You better fucking make it count.

If I make it out alive I’m gona make with your life!

But when the currants raise

You will be in the dark and the me you knew will

Be nowhere to be found!

You will find yourself lying on the ground

Begging for a way out,

You should have made it count!

The Tomb We Live In

I need you here my dear,
To stop the shedding of these tears.
I need you here right now,
I need you by my side to stop these thoughts of suicide.

Pleas just come close to me
I need to feel your heart beat
This isn’t fake, my pain is real.
I held a gun up to my head,
And thought of the world if I was dead.
About a dozen people at my funeral
And you weren’t there because you don’t care.

I dug myself a hole a thousand miles wide
To burry my pain and my heart inside.
Life is hard to live when you’re in it alone.
When you have time to see me next my name will be in stone
Life and death are all the same, you’re in a tomb all alone.

I need you here right now,
I need you by my side to stop these thoughts of suicide.
But you don’t care your somewhere else,
With people who “matter”, but what matters most
Is lost like the ghost of our past.
You have one last chance to make this last!
What you do now reflects on how you really feel.
And in the end somehow you know it all works out.
But with a bullet in the chamber there is no way out,
As I scream out loud!
I need you here my dear,
To stop the shedding of these tears!
I need you here right now,
I need you by my side, to stop this act of suicide!

I dug myself a hole a thousand miles wide
To burry my pain and my heart inside.
Life is hard to live when you’re in it all alone.
When you have time to see me next my name will be carved in stone
Life and death are all the same, you’re in a tomb all alone.

You have one last chance to save my life!
So baby I beg you please come home!

Fishes!!

This is just some of my old graphic art work I found, looked cool so I thought I should post it :p

A Reality Dream

In a dream things are always right, no matter the oddity

It isn’t until you wake up that you throw your mind together

And realize what you just experienced was immensely impossible,

But even still, what wasn’t possible has just been done.

In a dream I caught myself chasing myself from a darkness that was me.

In this dimension everything is what it seems. There are no limits

Inside a dream. Is this world we live in an illusion, or is the dimension on

The other end of the time warp what we imagine?

When you leave next take these words and read them on the other side

Of space for this map that I give will win you the race.

And don’t be afraid if you see her face, because anything is possible

So enjoy the embrace.

Floating through shadows of your colorful past, oh how we all wish it could last

But when you’re falling you hit the floor, because when you cross over the cliff isn’t there anymore.

An endless game and you can never die because you can split back to your other life.

In a dream I caught myself chasing myself from a darkness that was me.

In this dimension everything is what it seems. There are no limits

Inside a dream. Is this world we live in an illusion, or is the dimension on

The other end of the time warp what we imagine?

When you leave next take these words and read them on the other side

Of space for this map that I give will win you the race.

And don’t be afraid if you see her face, because anything is possible

So enjoy the embrace.

Fidelity

Believe in me,

Because what I do may seem to be

Out of all reality, our reality, no your reality!

I said I’d catch you when you fell, and I always did,

Even when what you were doing went against good sense.

Yeah I said I loved you more and I always did,

It’s your fidelity that brought us to this distance.

And everything you did stopped making sense.

 Believe in me because I have always believed in you,

Even if you say my words weren’t true,

And in all reality this is my way of stopping you.

Because what you said and what you did, went against all truth.

It only takes one to fight, but two for this fidelity,

So just believe in me like I have faith in you

And everything you do, even when you stop making sense.

I said I would all ways back you up, and I always did

Even when what you were doing was bound for a bad upshot,

But we could always close the distance.

So have faith in me, for not only what you see, but for everything you believe.

Come back to me, not only for me, because it’s mostly for you.

I love you more than words could say, my heart, it screams when you’re away.

Because you never let me go but, you just did.

And everything in life stopped making sense.

we can work things out, we always did!

It only takes one to fight, but two for this fidelity,

So just believe in me like I have faith in you

And everything you do, even when you stop making sense.

I said I would all ways back you up, and I always did

Even when what you were doing went against all sense.

So have faith in me, for not only what you see, but for everything you believe.

Come back to me, not only for me, because it’s mostly for you.

I love you more that words could say, my heart, it screams when you’re away.

Because you never let me go but, you just did.

And everything in life stopped making sense.

we can work things out, we always did!

"What Are You Waiting For"

You’re still sitting and waiting

You’re watching and hating

As the world goes by

And you know I had to let you go

Yeah, you don’t know how to survive

Without me by your side.

But like a friend I still stand by

Just in case you take the dive.

Take a breath of December air

In hopes it will carry you there.

When we used to sit in silence

And watch the world pass by us.

But what are you waiting for,

You don’t know what you’re waiting for.

You should just get rid of your heart tonight

Because December air won’t do you well.

And you know we won’t get better,

Because you can’t do better.

There is a hole inside you, dark like a

Winter night, and cold because I

Was the one that kept you warm,

 And I’m the one who kept it bright.

Looking at the ice you see our reflection

But it’s pointing in the wrong direction.

And you’re almost sure you’ve had enough of this

Life alone, so you plead to god for a sign.

You’re still sitting and waiting

You’re watching and hating

As the world goes by

And you know I had to let you go

Yeah, you don’t know how to survive

Without me by your side.

But like a friend I still stand by

Just in case you take the dive.

 Take a breath of December air

In hopes it will carry you there.

When we used to sit in silence

And watch the world pass by us.

But what are you waiting for,

You don’t know what you’re waiting for.

You should just get rid of your heart tonight

Because December air won’t do you well.

And you know we won’t get better,

Because you can’t do better.

Yeah we had driven on a long road of Indecisions,

But this is our time to forget our pasts, because no matter

What you did you just couldn’t make it last.

I know you hurt, from the words I said

Because branches and boulders will crush you

But words will leave you empty.

And now it’s your turn to runaway

Because all the things you never knew that you wanted

Were never here with me.

This Feeling

I cant explain the feeling I get

Its happy its sad and full of regret.

I stand tall to fall harder,

Live life to die,

And tell truths to lie.

Now what are you supposed to do

When everything in life contridicts.

We climb the cliff just to jump.

Throw away yesterday because in the end

Its going to happen regardless, and there is no way to win.

Does what we learn in life count in death

We learn to live and then we die

Whats the point of living life.

And when im standing with a knife to my neck

I cant explain the feeling I get

Its happy its sad and full of regret.

I stand tall to fall harder,

Live life to die,

And tell truths to lie.

And the truth is putting your life at risk

Is the only way to know why you’re here.

Its up to you to live or die

But first put time in life and try.

In this posistion you reflect upon your past

At what you did and if it will last.

Your name is only letters,

But a word and an action are so much more.

With your body gone will your legacy live on?

Did you help another life? Did you help them put down the knife.

Or did you live in greed and kill your trust.

If the ladder pray to god that someone else will come along

To save your life and take your knife.

To help you see that there is more than self pitty,

To help you help more.

Because in the end your life is only worth what you accomplished.

So when your standing with a knife to your neck

 Take time to look back and ask yourself ” Am I ready to die”.

I cant explain the feeling I get

Its happy its sad and full of regret.

I stand tall to fall harder,

Live life to die,

And tell truths to lie.

Could I Be The guy?

Its dificult to speak when your moulth closed.

Its dificult to see when your eyes are shut.

Its dificult to hear when sounds get too loud.

Its dificult to breath when you walk by,

Its like my heart stops every time.

And your exactly the kind of girl I seek every day.

I noticed your looking for someone, could I be the guy?

Take one step forward and add two more, because my reverse

Dosent work anymore.

Yeah Im nothing specal, but give me a chance, just one dance.

Just one dance with your heart in my hands, I’ll make you fall in love,

Again, and again, so every day we have a new beginning without an end.

So take my hand I wont cheat and I don’t lie.

I noticed your looking for someone, could I be the guy?

Take one step forward and add two more, because my reverse

Dosent work anymore.

Jump

Fate isn’t ever what it seems girl.

And it seems the fabric of time is tearing at the seams 

As we are back agents the wall at the edge of the world.

Yeah, here I am again trying to play pretend,

And the sky starts falling like the tears of our tomorrow,

Because a heart isn’t something that's supposed to be borrowed.

So here we are me and you but to tell you the truth

I’m here for you so step back down because you deserve what’s best too,

And jumping just won’t do, you have so much to see and so much to be.

So just seize this day and feel the affection the world gives you.

Like a rock our pasts are black, but don’t throw it back.

Take the time to cut and polish and you may just happen to be 

A jewel for all to see.

Now I would be lying if I said that things wouldn’t be tough 

But all of my words could amount to nothing or everything, but it’s up to you, I hope it’s enough..

Step back down we are in this together maybe even forever.

I’ll walk you through and kiss your bruise 

If you fall I'll be there 

Yeah I'll be there 

Just wait and see, because you know you mean the world to me.

Give me one chance or I promise I'll leave because my heart just can’t bare to see.

We can’t change each other but we can grow together to see tomorrow

I'll fill your heart if you fill mine I promise it won’t get hurt this time.

Because I know a heart is fragile, I know how you feel at the edge of the world ready to jump

But even then it’s not enough.

So we will hold hands through all our trials, because life is tough.

Looking Back

Looking back on the past.

There were a lot of good things that didn’t last.

It’s been a while since I’ve been here

And seeing your face sets me right out of place.

It feels like a dream, yet its part of my past...

If there were just one thing I could change

I would run towards my past..

But it’s too late for my love, and I can’t go back.

The time we had was never enough.

And now I’m sorry.

I’m sorry I didn’t love you enough.

I’m sorry about all the times that were tough.

I’m sorry my love just wasn’t enough.

No one else knew what we had been through.

The connection we had now hangs by a thread.

Because you listened to someone who could never know the truth.

Our bond was strong like our favorite songs.

That keep us together when weir far apart.

But here we are now because our minor mistakes.

What we both had, it could have been great.

The time that we had just wasn’t enough.

And now I’m sorry but sorrys to late...

If there were just one thing I could change

I would run towards my past..

But it’s too late for my love, and I can’t go back.

You seem so distant like a stranger.

I feel like I knew you better than the rest.

But now that you’re gone I see a side of

You that makes me distressed.

How could I love you aside from your looks?

The affection you gave seems like a disguise.

The reason you left me, still stuck behind lies.

I look at you now and what you are doing.

You seem so naive, ignorant, and self pursuing.

In the end it’s about you and hardly about me.

Now we are a part, that’s all I can see...

So tell me you’re sorry,

Let’s see YOUR tears.

You have to be sorry you used me for years!

If there were just one thing I could change

I would run towards my past..

But it’s too late my love, and I can’t go back.

Go back to change when we got together

So just for once you and I would be never.

All of my pain and all of my tears would never have happened for those two whole years.

It’s too late for I’m sorrys, weir both better off dead.

Because I’ll never forget you with Basic Space in my head.

So you run towards your past, I hope you never forget

I hope my face and my heart are carved in your head!

I’m sorry I chose you

I’m sorry I cared

I’m sorry I fell for your lies and your looks.

I’ll keep your face on this stupid page so I can look back at the one person I trusted

That tore out my heart, and spit on my dreams.

I’m sorry I chose you

I’m sorry I cared

I’m sorry I fell for your lies and your looks.

But, it’s too late for I’m sorrys, weir both better off dead.

Because I’ll never forget you with Basic Space in my head.

So you run towards your past, I hope you never forget

I hope my face and my heart are carved in your head!

Fun in the sand!

these shoes are getting old :(

on our way to the canyon

"Like An Endless Game"

Brightness fades with golden colors

 as the darkness grasps and covers.

The deep dark blue lasts forever

 with small bright lights laced in tight.

 The moon’s dim glow reveals the night.

As the darkness fades away

it reveals a brand new day.

 The golden colors rise again.

The sun reveals to us its plan.

 The earth our planet comes to life.

Vibrant colors reds and yellows

 mark the flowers and their petals.

 As time passes colors fade

 darkness grabs another day,

 but every end marks a new beginning.

 Darkness and the lights stalemate

will always bring a brand new day.